SHE CRIED…

Hey everyone!

Thanks for all the check-ins and continued thoughts and prayers, I really appreciate it. After 6 very long weeks, I’m done with radiation thankfully and it is such a relief to not have to go there every night after work.

A lot of you are asking what’s next. Well, I’m still in treatment and will be until around April. I’m currently going every 3 weeks to Sloan for my antibody infusions of Herceptin and Pertuzamab to target the HER2 gene and am taking a daily med called Tamoxifen which blocks estrogen in the breast tissue movies to download netflix. Since my breast cancer was HER2 positive and estrogen positive, these two forms of treatment are necessary to help prevent a recurrence.  They all come with their own side effects, which I’m dealing with on a daily basis, but as annoying and sometimes debilitating as they are, they definitely beat the alternative.

Now that I have some time to breathe I’m able to think back on everything that I’ve been through in the past year and where I’m at now citrix receiver download kostenlos.  One thing that sticks out in my mind is an email exchange with one of my good friends, Catherine when I was first diagnosed. Catherine and I have known each other since the 90’s and have always said we are forever tied to each other by the OJ Simpson verdict. We were working at the same company and sitting in the car together listening to the radio when the verdict came in. Every time I see anything about that case, it reminds me of her and that day download multiple files chrome.

Catherine was diagnosed with breast cancer in October of 2001 and had been through the full range of treatment. We hadn’t seen each other in forever, her life busy with three kids and a career, mine with the rat race of NYC.  But we remained connected on Facebook and I was about to let everyone know online about my diagnosis and I didn’t want her to see it there without first telling her personally Download hex editor for free.

I emailed her: “So, you know how we will always have the OJ Simpson verdict in common? Unfortunately we now have something else. I was just diagnosed with breast cancer.”

She wrote back, “I will call you as soon as I stop crying.”

I told her not to cry, that I was ok and will be fine, that I was in good spirits and ready to get started with treatment.

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And while I look back at what I’ve been through in the past year, I’m also trying to look forward download fortnite update faster. I have my follow-up appointment with my surgeon on October 31st and will get my next mammogram then as well. The 3 weeks in between the antibody infusions gives me a little bit of normalcy. I’m starting to get back into exercising and life as it used to be is slowly coming back into focus.

But I’m also constantly reminded of my diagnosis neverwinter herunterladen. The scars are there, physically, mentally and emotionally and from what I am learning, always will be. The thought of a recurrence occasionally creeps in when you least expect it. There are the “what ifs” you have to talk yourself out of. And now that it’s October and Breast Cancer Awareness Month it’s hard not to think about it download whatsapp new smileys. Between the barrage of social media posts, pink ribbons, commercials, bright pink NFL attire, articles about new treatments, research, fundraising and discussions on how many women are still dying from breast cancer every year, even if I wanted to mentally step away from it, it’s impossible right now.

I know what it takes to fight breast cancer. I know the fear, the physical limitations of the human body that get pushed to the very brink during treatment, to be your own biggest cheerleader in your quietest, darkest moments, to remain hopeful and grateful for every breath and day you are still here.

I used to be like most people during the month of October. I’d see the fundraising races on the news, the masses of badasses running with their survivor sashes and bald heads. I knew they had been through something, but I didn’t know the level of human spirit and strength they needed to get there.

From this day forward when I hear someone has been through breast cancer treatment, or has been diagnosed, my heart will ache for them, for what they have gone through, or will need to go through. I know they will do what they have to do to get through it and come out the other side, whatever other side that is.

I think back to that first email I sent to Catherine and her immediate response back.

And now I know why she cried.

20 thoughts on “SHE CRIED…”

  1. As I wipe my eyes reading this, I realize how grateful I am for your strength to share this experience with us. I never knew how much one went thru with the diagnosis. Continue to fight and work hard on rebuilding your health. I will continue to pray. ❤️

  2. Been following your messages through my friend Erin, at first I felt like I was being nosey, but after the first couple, I was hooked, your messages are so heart felt, I feel like I know you, then I realize my wife is one of those who can relate and cry as well. I didn’t know her then, and could only imagine what it was like. Thank you for the sharing, I wish you great days, months, and decades and a life time of great health
    Michelle

    1. Thank you, Michelle, I appreciate you following and coming in to comment. My best to your wife, I wish you only a future of health and happiness. xoxo

  3. Wow Deb,
    So many can sympathize with you but only the ones who have been through breast cancer can empathise. You truly amaze me with your strength spiritually, mentally and physically.

    Love you, De

  4. So glad you shared this, praying to the almighty jehovah jireh -the Lord that heals- that you are healed i declare and decree it through Jesus Christ who loves you and may his grace and mercy abound towards you as you are healed totally and completely!! XO God Bless

  5. Hey Deb, just came across this and as I read it with tears in my eyes I couldn’t help but think back to high school and all the memories. Just want you to know you’re in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong and keep fighting. You have my email if you’re ever back home, would love to get together. God Bless

    Kelly (Lawton) Petrone

    1. Thank you, Kelly. We did have some good times, didn’t we. 🙂 Careful, Mrs. Tebo comes in here sometimes, we can’t give away all our secrets. LOL. On a more seriousness note, please be sure to get your mammogram – every year – and do self exams. So important! I would love to get together, it’s been forever. Hope you, Ant and the family are all doing well. xoxo

  6. We had some really good times!! Now that I found this website I’ll be sure to check it regularly. Hopefully all future posts have a great ending. I do get a mammogram every year, sometimes more then that. I’ve had quite a few scares and a few biopsys. And thankfully I’m ok. You’re in my thoughts and I’ll keep checking to see how you’re doing. You have my email so feel free to reach out. Take care
    Kelly

    1. Thank God you were ok. So happy to hear you are on top of it, it’s so important. Will definitely shoot you an email! xoxo

  7. Because she knew. She knew. And it broke her open to hear it from you. Yes, unless you’ve walked in our moccasins you can’t know how it feels. And though her song is about rape Lady GaGa’s song “Til it Happens to You expresses how I feel so much that I sobbed when I heard it.
    https://youtu.be/gkGV_AgjMb0

    I felt violated. Strapped down on a table my head encased in a mask that bolted to a table. And when I vomited no one let me out. So when someone tells me , can’t you just get over it. Well, no I can’t. Not yet, maybe not ever. But I can heal and I can hold my hand out to another going through it and tell them. You’ll think you can’t survive this. But you can. It caused me the type of rage you feel that isn’t healthy if you’re hoping to heal permanently. And of course now I’m reformed and pester everyone with, don’t smoke, only two drinks a day, cautious lifestyle pertaining to HPV virus. (tho I was negative for it) But, if I could save one person. It’s worth it.

    1. So sorry all that happened to you, Candy. I definitely agree it’s worth talking about if you can help save someone from going through it. Hang in there. xoxo

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