HEART…

Hello all,

Again, thank you for the texts, calls and check-ins to see how I’m doing, it really means a lot. Things are going ok. I was Sloan appointment hopping the last week or so to take care of some side effect issues and feeling much better this week. Finished up my 14th infusion on Friday, only 2 more chemos to go!

One of those appointments last week was for an echocardiogram. My oncologist wanted me to have another echo to check my heart because we haven’t had one done since I started chemo and as I wrote in the beginning, it can cause heart damage amazon series on pc download.  Also, I was getting a little out of breath at times and she just wanted to make sure it wasn’t anything serious.  So this past week I went in to have the echo and I’m happy to report that everything came back fine. Well aside from apparently being very out of shape now, but that’s a topic for another day.

I also had a consult appointment with a radiation oncologist who will be treating me after chemo when I move on to the radiation phase the end of July download the report slip. There is a lot of setup to radiation in the beginning because they need to be extremely precise.  In a couple of weeks I will be going in for my “mapping” appointment that will take a few hours because they position you on the machine and map out exactly where the radiation is going to hit so they can avoid any other areas they don’t want to be damaged or affected.

Specifically – my heart.

Since my breast cancer was on the left side, my heart is right there. One way we will try to protect it is through a breathing technique where we attempt to fill up my chest wall with air between my breast and my heart so the radiation only targets the breast tissue Download bloons td 5 apk for free.  I was shown what I’ll be doing and told to practice, because it can be difficult. It involves my arms raised up while laying flat on a hard machine then holding my breath for periods of time while the radiation hits.

During this appointment, as has been the case throughout this entire ride so far, I keep getting surprised by how much more I am doing than I thought I would herunterladen. So much for Googling “breast cancer treatment.” But seriously,  because not all breast cancers are the same, not all protocols of treatment are the same. For example, I am doing 12 weekly Taxol chemos, not 4 every 2 weeks. I have to do it this way because of the antibody infusions they tacked on every 3rd week http www.festinagroup.com/de/download-bedienungsanleitungen/. That’s 3 times as many needle sticks and veins being damaged. This last appointment took 2 sticks because they are running out of vein options and can only use my right arm. My left arm is out of commission for the rest of my life because of the lymph nodes that were removed on that side. So when one vein doesn’t catch they go to another one and I’ve pretty much used up all the good ones wie kann ich herunterladen.

Also, I am HER2 positive, so the protocol for treating that is to get the chemo, then Herceptin infusions after chemo. But I’m also adding the drug Perjeta to my treatment plan because Sloan Kettering’s research has shown that adding Perjeta has been proven to work extremely well with Herceptin in combating the HER2.  It’s a one-two punch.  And I’ll be getting these Herceptin/Perjeta infusions until April of 2017.  I can remember vividly sitting with my oncologist as she went over my treatment plan back in February, my head swimming as I tried to grasp the length and overall gravity of what I’d be up against for the next 5 months to a year excel tables available for free download.

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But that all brings me to another subject – heart.

It’s the kind sports psychologists write about. It is the willingness to continue on, with drive and discipline and purpose and fight, and pushing through the hurdles, both physical and mental, even when you feel like you’re up against it and your competition, whoever or whatever that may be, is getting the best of you. It’s the faith to keep going when there’s not yet an end in sight, a desire to win, at all costs.

Luckily, I have been an athlete all my life. I learned early on to push through pain and stay in the game mentally in double overtime when exhausted.  I learned how to get through long, hot practices like college field hockey double sessions during pre-season. The days when you can barely walk up the dorm stairs in between the 8am practice and the 2pm practice because your muscles ache to the point of tears. But you do it and you get back out there. I have witnessed countless times the games and championships we have won because we had more heart than our bigger, higher ranked opponents.

It is that innate characteristic that has carried me all the way from my Little League days and clear through my high school and college three-sport careers that I’m now relying on to get me through these long treatment plans. I know no other way than to just keep going.

So please, take care of your hearts. Eat healthy diets and get your exercise in. You never know when you will need it to be as strong as it can be, to withstand stress and surgeries and tests and treatments.

And if you ever find yourself in a situation where you’re in it for the long haul, when you think you’re almost done but you’re told two more weeks, or another year, or they’re adding another level of something, dig deep within you to keep going, keep fighting and pushing, until you get there.

In other words…have heart.

26 thoughts on “HEART…”

  1. You have the Biggest Heart and I know that you will not give up!!!!! Keep going and the time goes by (I know not quick enough) but when it is all over you will look back and say WOW I DID IT!!!! You are not alone Thoughts and Prayers to you and your Family. God Bless Deb,

  2. Way to go Deb. Keep fighting, stay positive. Thinking of you. What an eye opener, never realized what people/ friends/co-workers where actually going through. Thanks for sharing. xo

    1. Thanks, Julie. I never knew either. It’s definitely been an eye-opener what fighting this entails and that’s why I’m sharing so much of my journey. These women who have come before me have gotten through it, so I know I can. I will never look at a survivor the same way again and will always do what I can to support anyone down the line while they go through it. Thanks for following my ride and for all your love and support. xoxo

  3. You are a warrior Princess & my personal hero ♡♡♡♡
    You’re doing great! We are sending you strength & positive energy… prayers and lots of hugs xoxo

  4. you have a ton of heart, deb– as evidenced by the fb message you sent me! lol here you are, going through all this, and you send me a message about being internet safety! only you-

    thinking of you! xo

  5. glad i made you laugh! although, i have to call out my error!!!!!! it’s driving me nuts- ‘a message about internet safety’ not ‘being internet safety’!!!!!! 😉

  6. You we not only an incredible, strong person but such a great writer! What an inspiration, we love you!

  7. I did seven weeks, five days a week. Some peeps in my group had it in the morning and evening. You really don’t notice at the beginning. Just tiredness. It’s toward the end you have to really suck it up. Let others treat you, and treat yourself. A night out, a special dinner, a massage, spa, whatever, a breath of ocean or lake. Whatever rejuvenates you. It’s important. I wish I could have eaten total comfort food for seven weeks but unfortunately mine was aimed at the throat so I basically ate almost nothing for seven total weeks and lost 50 plus pounds. That was the scariest part of all, the weight loss. I didn’t see the breast cancer patients losing weight. They threatened to put a feeding tube line in but I fought that. It took longer to gain my weight back but I am glad I did it my way. Others had a lot harder time regaining the ability to eat and swallow food the longer they had the feeding tube in. Milk shakes taste great Eat healthy food but also include food that you love. You are going to come out of this stronger.

    1. Wow that is harsh, so sorry you had to go through all that. I have heard it causes pretty bad fatigue towards the end. Will be sure to take it easy and one day at a time. xoxo

  8. If I am counting correctly, you have had your last big bad chemo!!! Congratulations, BA Warrior! I cried at my last one – I mean BOO HOOs! And I felt so powerful!

    If they give you cream for radiation, USE IT! At first you might think you don’t need it. You do.

    I am close to finished, three Herceptin infusions to go.

    I saw this today and thought of us and all the others in this club nobody wants to join:

    “You’ve survived 100 percent of your worst days.
    You’re doing great.”

    1. Thank you! BUT…I had to postpone my last chemo until hopefully next week. 🙁 New blog with details coming soon! Three more to go for you and you can get your port out, so happy for you! LOVE that quote going to save it. XOXO

  9. Hi Deb,
    You don’t know me but I have been following your journey for several months now through the wonders of FB. My niece, Erin Penders was kind enough to share your story.

    You are an amazing woman. Your strength, determination and positive attitude is something to be commended. Not everyone as I’m sure you know can muster up such as you have….never easy.

    I am a very strong believer in the power of prayer chains. I have been in way too many of them as of late. But through the grace of God and many warriors my friends survived and succeeded back to a very healthy, progressive lifestyle that they were used to when it was taken away without warning.

    I am adding you to my ‘prayer chain’……chin up Deb, you got this, keep moving forward and never look back. Biggest of hugs, many prayers and positive thoughts coming your way ❤️❤️🙏🙏

    Regards,
    Bunny Thompson

    1. Hi Bunny, nice to meet you here, maybe someday we will meet in person. Thank you so much for adding me to your prayer chain and for the kind words and support. It’s a long road but through the love and support of friends, family and stranger friends, it’s been easier to travel. I really appreciate you taking the time to come in and post your note. xoxo

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